hm yes. so im back. i hated xanga a lot cause you cant customize anything the way you want it. you probably can but it costs money OR i dont know how to do it. so i gave up and now im abck on here cause i like it best.

today was out last day of school. sooo sad. i was talking to mr fetter before 4th period and i wanted to cry my face off! i love him so so so much. he was on of the best teachers ive ever had in my whole life. and i think it is the most pathetic thing ever how hes getting laid off. maybe our school so get more money...but i hope hes happy where ever he goes. cause hes ahmazing! so i got all my pictures taken with the majority of the poeple i wanted. none with lindsay i believe which is a good thing trust mee. a few of rachel reeves cause i love her and then ryan and caitlin and stuff. cute cute cute. so yeah i was sad today. i will be deprived of hot kids for two montths and plus brandi and amber are leaving. so gay. this eyar went by really fast though. i feel like it was so short. which can be good but i have the ebst friends anyone could ever ask for. so its going to be hard not seeing them every day of my LIFE. cause yes. i am in love wiht my friends and i would bang everyone of them. study hall...so much fun even though ms pelletier was in an EXTRODINARY mood (just kidding. i hate her). but i still had fun. i cgave arlette a short and very upfront talk about puberty...she liked it and i know it =). rachel was trying to be all like aww arlette hunnie ill tell you and then i could tell rachel coudnt find the right words...atleast she wasnt thinking of them fast enough so i just shouted out the answer to her question...what are pubes??? hahahahahaha. yeah, ill miss moments like these. =( all im worried about which i shouldnt even have to be cause im OUT of SCHOOL. is actually passing gym and science. i havnt done any weeklys in science and they count as quizzes so i ahev to give mr fetter my weeklys tomorrow. annd i have only made up one gym class so far and i was missing five. hot. so yeah im out of school. that means summer vacation...and im still doing LOADS of work.

plus them two books for english NEXT YEAR and the one im going to do for extra credit...

k so. bk tomorrow so that should be fun. thenn brandi is sleeping here. and thenn friday...nothing. BUT saturday im going to my cousins house and me and kalli are going to a lock in at spinners and meet some BOYS. right about now im prayng i can make it through 14 hours without any sleep. i can do it. omg im so over tired right now so im going to go to bed.

BASICALLY. im bored and i need to pee. and i hate advisment cause there is only 30 minutes left. pshh. so i just wanted to write and say that there isnt going to be very much left to see in here because im moving to xanga. im just kind of working on that site so itll be pretty when i start posting the link places. i dont know really if i like that one better yet, its kind of hard to figure out so far but im working on it...ill write more after school



ps. if you have a myspace account go to mine and add me or leave me comments lol. my thing is starting to look a little bit empty =(

this weekend has been a weird one. theres been serious highs and anyone that has talked to em can tell after what went on on friday night but theres been serious lows too. like yesterday when i couldnt do what i wanted...then theres been today where ive just been so mixed up and thinking a lot. ive realized a lot of things about myself this weekend. as cliche as it sounds, im starting to find out who i am and what i really want to change and keep the same about me. its tough to go through when you were just starting to like yourself. when you were starting to feel like things couldnt really get any better...

idk. in like the worst mood. and its not all because i cant go to buffalo but its because i feel like my dad didnt even consider it. and i asked him if he trusted me and he said no. what have i ever done that makes me untrustworthy??? ugh idk im so mad. i know ive seen them like 2 times lol but i really wanted to go.


so i think maybe ill call jayme or lisa or something and see what they are doing cause i have nolthing eles to do all day.

yeah pretty much i want to go to buffalo. i knwo my dad will never let me. but i do have a ride home. rob said hed bring me home...besides that even if i did somehow find a ride out there to see plain white ts...i would have no one to hang out with. so thatd suck. idk what to do. i wanted to see them before they like left new york. cause idk when the next time is that theyd be in town you know...idk i need to like not get obsessed with people and bands liket his. or maybe i need to learn how to drive...??? so yeah pretty much nicole and lisa think that im crazy by now. but if i could actually go see them again before they left, id be so happy =)


newyas thats all ive got for right now. maybe ill go beg my dad or find some more friends to get a ride with=/.



PS. everyone watch fuse today at 3. stevens untiled rock show just might be showing my beloved plain white ts =D <3 =D <3

bleh. bad week so far and o great...its only...tuesday!!! YAY. well good news, i talked to my mom =) bad news, my uncle scott is NOT doing good at all. the other crap im not going to even get into...so frustrating.


mike from a fall from grace is still trying to get the rest of the guys to decide where they want me to geth them booked because the people at water street are ass holes. =) lol. so they have thwe choice of me continuing to try and egt them at water street...or i could do steel (which im a little unsure of) or the penny. idk what they are gunan do but i ahve a problem cause its supposed to eb on the 24th of july and well all be outta school so idk how id promote it. but they are a good band so you should check them out on my space and mayeb purevolume...im not sure.


basically theres gunna eb a plain white ts show on friday adn i feel like i need to go. that means i might need to find people to go with. its at 6 at steel music hall and its $12 at the door. m,y dad said hed maybe take me if rachel wasnt going with her mom even tho i saw them like in march hahahah. but i love them so much!!!! YA TOM! hes my heroooooooo =) and hes hot hahahah.


well i think thats like it for tonight. ive got seminars to do!!! yayyyyyyyy =( ugh and i gotta take a shower. unless i just wear my hair up tomorrow. hahahaha just kiddinnnnnng. gym tomorrow with brandi =) lol...

so yes. that says it all. lol. i dont really have much to say but i think im going to change my colors cause...idk i get bored. lol. so basically all that im doing right now is talking to mike from a fall from grace (good band. check em out on myspace and purevolume!!!) and i was trying to get them booked at waterstreet. but the people there are ASS HOLES. and dont return phone cals or emails...so now it might have to be the penny. and im upset...cause eveyone knows the penny but no one goes there lol. so i dont know. its up to him and the guys. they could play the less popular place or i can keep trying water street. so idk. up to mike right now...so ill just put some of my newer icons on here then im going to change my colors and all. thats hot. cya hos


           

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o god i need to find something better to do with my time during advisment than update this about nothing. lol. so basicaly all that went on today was spanish speaking test... i got a perfest score of course...then a fire srill. mad hawt. i got to see caitlin and stuff for like 5 minutes. then i went to study hall. me and lynette basically arnt friens nemore. we dont ever talk and we hang out with different people. it kind of sucks cause we used to have a lot of fun together but now we barley even talk. i dont like the people shes around now. stuck up girls that think they are so hot and so popular...im more laid back and i dont care what my hair looks like every five seconds of the day, or wether or not people saw me eat something like they are. i dont know. im not saying that epople that are like that cant be my friend or whatever cause i know sometimes i dont want the guy that i like to see me eat cause i dont want to egt somehting on my face, and i do apply lip gloss like every 2 minutes...but im saying that they are so into themselves that i refuse to hang around them. i feel out of place around her and i never did before. so i think its just the way that lynettes attitude has changed and her morals being way different than mine and the people she decides to be around...so just during study hall after lynette left with elise i talked to mary and ryan and amy. and amy is so funny lol. she says the dumbest things that ive ever heard. she asked me if people in egypt had computers lol. and she asked if mary would have to have one of the lines on her scar removed afte she died (because one reminds her that she still alive you know?) so we just laughed our asses off at her. then before al of this she was like guys if i tell you something you have to promise that you wont tell anyone and i was like o ok i wont so she goes...hahhaha...i dont like louis nemore and we all looked at each other and were like so and then she showed us her hand and it said mike 5.2.05...so i was like um...ok? and ryans like are you guys going out and she did her dumb giggle and i just started to laugh and ryans like well who is he and she goes shhhh he lives in penfield...so we were asking her like why we couldnt tell ne1 cause that doesnt even make sense. NO ONE WOULD KNOW HIM!!!! lol...so basicaly she met him on the internet cause becca dated him a while ago and shes never met him...or seena  picture of him...or even talked toh im on the phone...people are really smart...